OUTFIT | ABOUT FEELING OVERWHELMED AND ANXIOUS

12 June 2017



Happy Monday lovelies! I took a little break from blogging last week. Like I said in my latest blog post I was not really feeling it at all lately. Every once in a while I get this very overwhelming feeling. Negative thoughts take over and all I can think is: Why am I even doing this? What am I doing with my life? I am twenty now, why do I have nothing figured out yet? I am not satisfied with my content. My writing sucks. 

It all got too much last week after I heard some negative things being said about me. I am someone who, even though I shouldn't, I take things that people say about me very close to heart. Especially when they are your so-called friends, but talk shit about you behind your back. It made me doubt myself as a person, my work on my blog as well as my future career after I finish school.

Basically, I had a massive mental breakdown, bawled my eyes out and felt anxious all week. I just did not feel like blogging too much last week. I already knew that the content that I would be writing would not be good anyway. Putting on a fake smile, trying to pull it through a week at work, having to be social. It drains the energy away from you when you're not happy at a certain moment in time. Negative thoughts can be overwhelming, and as much as I pretend to be fine and not let the negative thoughts get to me as much, it is a lot harder when someone you know and trust talk shit about you behind your back. You start doubting yourself...






There's nothing wrong with doubting yourself every once in while. It normally makes me feel even more motivated afterwards. It motivates me to work even harder to reach my goals and to prove my negative thoughts wrong. To prove those people who talk shit about you wrong. This time around however, it took a lot longer to get over this anxious, overwhelmed feeling. The reason of this all? Social media.

Now I know that people only share parts of their 'happy' life on their social media pages. I do it myself too. You see a photo on instagram that is absolutely gorgeous, but you don't know what is going on behind that pretty photo that someone shares on Instagram. They might feel awful, but it is all hidden behind that pretty photo.

But when negative thoughts take over, and you feel like crap, and your face is covered in pimples due to your stressy breakdowns and just are feeling very anxious and insecure, this image that people create around their photos does not help. It does not help to see all of these people on instagram sharing photos of their gorgeous bodies, on an amazing trip away in Ibiza, Rome, Barcelona living their luxury 'Instagram' lifestyles. Now I am in no way saying that people should not be living their lives this way, sharing their posts on social media.

What I want to say with this blog post is that it is okay to feel overwhelmed and anxious at times. However, don't let social media fool you into thinking that your life sucks, just because you don't live that way. I see lots and lots of younger girls nowadays being depressed, because they feel like they have to live up to the Instagram lifestyle standards. And yes, I compare my life to those Instagram lifestyle standards too. And to be completely realistic, it's not realistic at all.

I am only twenty years old, which is still so young! To feel like I have not accomplished anything in life yet is normal at this age. Because I haven't. I am only twenty years old and spent most of my time working my ass of in school or university to get the life that I want. What we have to remember, is that on social media, we all create this image as if we live in a perfect bubble. Even when life is not that great at the moment. But you do work hard and you do it all for your own reasons.

And even though I posted lot of (premade) content in which you could not see I had been having a shit week last week, I definitely was having one. I had a good think about it lately. And I am ready to talk about the real me too. About my insecurities in life. On what I see as succes or failure. I am ready to talk about these topics on my blog, on my Instagram. Even on Twitter. I am ready to share that life is not always perfect. We all deal with our demons and problems in a different way. So from now on, let's keep it real on here.

What I'm wearing:
H&M blazer
MissGuided top
ASOS jeans
Vans Old Skool trainers
Rebecca Minkoff bag





2 comments :

  1. Hi Laura, Looooong time lurker (in the least creepiest way). I actually think you have a really neat blog and honestly i'm amazed at the consistency because it's a blog i can always count on for something new. Yes writing may be a skill, but so is perseverance, and I'd consider that far more valuable - so long as you're doing what you love right? :)

    Everyone has their stormy periods and I'm glad you're handling yours well. As someone in their mid 20's i can say that 2-0 is definitely young. You do you. Chin up!

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    1. Thank you so so much for this lovely message Anonymous! :) xx

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